My room is empty, my suitcases are packed. I've said all my "see ya later"s now the only thing left to do is actually leave. I'm going to be a mess in the airport when it's time to leave mom. I'm glad Emily is coming with me for a week otherwise I don't think I could even get on the plane. Yesterday was pretty hard saying goodbye to Cade and Olivia, Grandma and Grandpa, Nana and Pop, Micki, Loren and Barrett. I can barely even TYPE about leaving these people how am I supposed to actually DO it?! It's not this small town that I'm having a hard time letting go of; it's all of my friends and family. Yes I love this little town and I'm going to miss it but the only thing that would keep me here in the people I love. There are no schools that I want to go to here or any career opportunities for me here. I can't make a living on the people I love, I need to go on this new adventure for me but it's proving to be way harder that I imagined. Last night I got home after dad went to bed and he didn't even wake me up this morning before he left for work. Guess I don't get to say goodbye to him. Anyways, there's stuff that needs to get done before we leave in an hour. Goodbye Illinois! See you around Thanksgiving/Christmas.